Blues!
The emptiness in my life is as vast as the sea. It fucking sucks cuz it just feels it was meant to be. I know there is something to be said for all of the reasons. It has been way too long since I had all of my seasons. There was a brief moment at best where I felt my world move. Yet again empty without anything or something to prove. Back to my abandoned ship where I feel most at home. Lonely, quiet, and open to what ever may come. The heart does ache to love a soul so complete. Unfortunately no-one will ever be in the running let alone even compete. This heart like the sea is even at best too big for me. I smile and laugh with life and joke myself into believing nothing is wrong. Until I hear the music in my soul burn me with blues ever so strong. I set myself free with every note be it purposeful or sinning At least I feel something purposeful and that I am winning. Feel it nice, Feel it slow, Feel it dirty, and let it go. The only time I ever feel anything is when ...