?LoveMe?

Happy 200th ?LoveMe? Poem and Thanks to all who made this be. 200 hundred poems written during some hard times and good for all to see. Especially after last years brush with death and rehab a very dark place indeed. Thanks for all the prayers & speedy recovery time to a come back fur sur to succeed. It may have taken me a while to find my writing hand again and surely I did. Just when some counted me out and others said, "Don't be so quick to bid!" I found who was important and who was not. And those who were not I haven't given a second thought. 200 Poems later our journey still has only just begun. Here is to another 100 more poems sad, good, questionable, inquisitive, and yes fun. Wishfully some you like, dislike, upsetting, laughable, and even some to hold close as you be. Continuing onward as we define ourselves in this life we all live and some even in ?LoveMe?

A color so simple and true Reminds me of us and all we have been through. Cobalt Blue is a statement color so rich in its Blue In all of who we are to one another and in all we do. Could not imagine being this color with any other than you. Cobalt Blue. Ours in its existence that surely everyone knows what it is when they see. Cobalt Blue is ours that surely everyone knows what it is in this life of ?LoveMe?  

A taste of you and I am drunk. Unlikeliest of all who'd a thunk. Someone such as you with me. Our thing is still forbidden for all to see. Most would not get it and others would NOT understand. How someone like you fits with a person like me all hand in hand. It is truly not even all about the sex and that is what's best. Especially with all that is out there to really try and put to test. Our Bond is so strong also a curse in public whenever we are near. That faggot from you and Fuckin Breeder Ass Redneck from me to maintain the fear. Our moments though few and far between. Being oh so careful to make sure we do not fall mainstream. Passionately Sensuous without words even makes us unique without question. There for each other in our own way without hesitation. Keeping our animal instincts from plain view. Difficult at first and now over the years real easy to do. Though there are moments when we cannot as we both disappear. Like two lions fighting over the s...

A day is what I am having. Of Not Smiling and Laughing. A day of missing myself and who I am. Misguided, Misled, do not know where to stand. Off-balance and getting some sort of control. Before slipping even further into this black hole. Shouldn't feel this way but I do. I know I am not the only one and you? Is it really Fake It Till You Make It Or, Forsake It and Bend Over And Take It. I do not know so I will regroup in a huddle. Call My Bestie over so we can cuddle Talk this over and see what has me in a befuddle. So silly and and to think it true. This isn't about me nor about you. It is just A Day I am having. Of not smiling and Laughing. Not everyday will be perfect in fact we all will have a few. Knowing of this will better your chances in knowing what to do. Look to the love and feel it all over you like swimming in the sea. Even through the rough waters if you keep swimming will find the sun again in ?LoveMe?

Just minding my own self like usual in the day I live. Sitting here in thought thinking, What I wouldn't give. Distracted by the scent of  Fresh Shower. You walk on by me with all the Charm on full power. Stopping my heart when you looked into me. Crumbling inside myself and wishing that you didn't see. All of the things you make my body do. When I locked my eyes onto yours in looking back to you. A simple smile so mischievously you had given. Like a spark into my darkness revealing something very well hidden. A treasure buried long ago and all that was attached with it. Not sure of this feeling all over me and why I am compelled not to sit As if I am being drawn to you in having to introduce myself in person To be sure though this is it, that I no longer need to search on. My heart in my throat I extend my hand to introduce my person in all sincerity. In the firm of your grasp I feel all I need t...

This day of new beginnings brings rain to cleanse the soul. Not sure which path to journey as is with the dice's roll. The hunger for more of wisdom is achieved in willingness to learn. Learning from those mistakes and accepting the responsibilities is what to yearn. Achieving responsibility is the best way to ensure wisdoms bestowment. Who really has the time to run in circles and of wallow I meant. I would rather be free of it all and be able to live and breathe. Than to be miserable in responsibility and taking the joys of others like a robber and thieve. I guess the key words here are Your Willingness. Not taking that responsibility serious enough is killing us. It is up to everyone in the learning from their mistakes department as well the acceptance of responsibilities while still yearning. To be hungry for more wisdom should match that hunger for more of learning. Still not sure which path to journey in thinking of the dice's roll? Every day is the new beg...

As you stand there in your way. Wishing to meet you some day. Still all caught up in the What Would I Do or What Would I Say. For now I will just enjoy you there in your way. Something about your eyes when you smile. The way they hypnotize me in moments for a while. Yes, there is that life to live. To watch you in your way, what I wouldn't give. Just that something special in my view. A hunger, a pain, a passion that burns for you. It does drive me crazy at times, what else am I to do. You are that something special in my view. I can no longer deny it whenever you are around. And yet my lips stay closed when next to you without a sound. For I know where my lips should be and that makes my heart pound Yeah Right, just let me try'n deny that when you are around. The moments I treasure is when you reach for my hand. Paralyzed in my emotions I sink as though I were in quicksand. The very stability of my inner collapses when you do finally pre...

One day will change your life in such a way. No matter what has been done, achieved, and with nothing else to really say. It will be your soul purpose of existence. No sense of time nor distance. Letting go of everything you thought to be close and oh so dear. Realizing the real moments of that heart ticking within you as near. You reach out to grasp onto the one thing you know to be true. Your hand feeling your own breast and that beating inside of you.  Listen to it and feel everything about it is your will. Your own heart that pumps the very thing you spill. Until that one day that changes everything and lets you see crystal clear. Living a life loveless is indeed a heartless thing for most my dear. Living a life heartlessly in love is what really haunts all others that be Living a life honest and true is how others are in a life of ?LoveMe?