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Everyday a piece of me is missing. The heart is heavy and I just am not listening. Getting back into the new norm. Harder to do when all you wanna do is morn. In this the day of the wonderful womens club. Already knew a few way before their time and could never sub. Big MaMa Linda, My Grandmothers Lady Ruth and Charity, and my Bestie Nancy. Amazing how a little love, honesty, and communication kept it all real and not so fancy. Each carved a piece of them into who I am and what I will be. They are all always there in the back of my head making me see. What's right, what's wrong. Filling my heart with always a song. How I would give just about anything to hear them say my name one more time. Cuz I always knew whether good or bad in that moment, I was owned and it was all mine. Without them the world is deafening quiet while standing there on my own two feet. Something about all that, that should be so bitter sweet. Though, even in their own words they...

To stand alone is truly a feat all on it's own. The days, weeks, months, and years roll on. Still passionate in all that is done even in tone. No mercy for the strong and no pity for the weak like a con. Living in truth and seeing everyone elses lie. Makes one weary of others on the age old question as to why? The patchwork heart locked in a gilded cage. Livingly waiting for a new dawning to a new age. No limits, No Boundaries, No Labels, No such thing as No. As to the yearning this heart wants to beat and over the years still has glow. To be prized such a gift to just anyone surely cannot be. Ones wit, manner, experiences, must match in order for this one to see. The keys to this kingdom exist in mind only. To unlock that one need not think but solely. Treat this in the manner you would want to be treated. To stand by each others side and not be defeated. Never having to think is never having to worry. To live in the Happily Ever Afters could be our story. To be...

My current disposition. Make ya curl fetal position. Without this composition. I'd be a Family Tradition. I grow in this transition. Like starting out a bad transmission. Don't fuck with the vision. No excuses just ambition. Man on a mission. Just a man on a mission. So when you told me NO. And you let me go. Didn't think I'd grow. Into the things I know. Well here's my show. Didn't see dat, OH. My bad so. Now you can go. Ain't  nothin for a ho. Man on a mission. Just man on a mission. Sippin on coffee. Drinkin my tea. Ain't no misery. Like watchin lassie. What ever will be. Will be. Doin what I see. Living and Loving all of me. Man on a mission. Just a man on a mission. ?LoveMe?  

The paths we choose will lead us to our journey. No two are the same in experiences between you and me. However, lessons learned along the way are. This is what makes us all sparkle like a star. Know where you have been and remember where you come from. Use the lessons learned along your journey for you to walk a steady course and not run. Look listen and feel your environment and ask is this really you. Answer yourself honestly and you will always know what to do. It is when you choose to stay stuck in the viciousness of pointing to everyone else for blame. That you will only know those who you let hold you back from your journey that you even forget your own name. Stop pointing to everyone else and start pointing that finger to you. Pick yourself up and brush it off and find your path which, you know what to do. Be who you are, be what you are, just let yourself be. Remember when you get to where you are and to always remember us in loving yourself in ?LoveMe?

You could never be sure of anything in this life. Even when facing death at the hands of someone elses knife. Everything you thought you knew is now all shook up. Not even being able to answer when someone asks, "S'up?" Now that what you thought to be real. All gone now, nope, what a raw deal. Now you are off to discover the new norm of so called life to be. Trying some new, Some old, and some will just have to wait and see. Until then it has always been about the living and live, live, live. Always trying, taking, being and as usual you have to give. Never thinking what you should. Doing what you can on the could. Keeping the mind open enough to the would. Woulda, Coulda, Shoulda, is not an all at once mind set on anything sane. Being two sided in life is no way to be either for you are just living in vien. Keep, know, and live what is real for any of the goodness to be really seen. Even surprising yourself along the way sometimes in wonderment with wher...

A few dreams? Yeah, I had quite a few. Doesn't matter now. Cuz, they were all squashed by you. Never with the love or the support you should have given to me. Instead? Work, work, work is all you will ever need to know---worker bee. Nobody special is what will amount to if you keep your head in the sky. I never wanted to be like you with no passion for living, I'd rather die. Now here it is all grown up with still some dreams just a few. Guess what? None of which will ever be squashed by you. Never get stuck on the negative bullshit of others growing up. Just remember, As you grow into beautiful they will be growing on stuck. Don't give into that crap of passing the buck. Make it worth your while and start giving a fuck! I made it on through and in keeping it real to be. Love yourself enough fantastically in ?LoveMe?

When I told myself enough was enough I meant it. Stuck with that feeling as my #1 rule and never bent it. Took me some years to get my life off my back. Stopped crying the same ole tears and got my life on track. Oh, you will never amount or be good at nothing. Oh, look at me now I got me ain't that something. Words from the wise and suppose to know better. Hard to live when you still hold on to their every letter. Oh, look at me now I got me ain't that something. Oh yeah that's right you only believed in nothing. After dealing with the anger I had for you. Then dealing with my own anger cuz it was so easy to do. Placing everything of me in clear jars. Helps me see what it was as I continue to reach for the stars. Oh, you will never amount or be good at nothing. Oh, look at me now I got me ain't that something. Words from the wise and suppose to know better. Hard to live when you still hold on to their every letter. Oh, look at me now I got me a...

So there it was just lying there like light to day before this thief in the night. A chance to fill my hunger with this beautiful creature ever so still within my sight. Do I dare or do I not with that chance of their voice saying no. Then again in chances taken how would I have ever really gotten to know. Their heavy breathing becomes mine as I move forward as to not give that chance of saying anything. A heavily beating heart to thought before finding my finger running down along their shirt string. Ever so gently grazing the exposed bare skin of their chest. A glimpse of a smile upon their face puts my assurance to rest. With their hand cupping mine while placing my hand elsewhere. A challenge I have already accepted from them if I do dare.  Undoing one button at a time to follow the trail beneath. In doing so a sye followed by a gentle moan is what was beque...

When you know a conversation with someone turns into more than just a conversation Especially when you catch that person looking into you with that hard anticipation. You know that look like they have been caught doing something wrong. When you know the only thing they wanna do is figure what will be our song. In that all defying moment when it is just you two and no one else will ever know. A hunger that lingers for their taste and touch with each passing second of passion that is to grow. Wanting to rip their skin off instead of their clothes just to be that close. An insatiable appetite for that person of which no-one else could ever pose. Making your fingers tingle when it feels like your touching them from the inside out. Trembling inside for no apparent reason as it is between you and them and that goes without any doubt. How to make it all stop when everything is telling you not to. Staying within your own skin and figuring what the hell to do. You gaz...

How does one really define and identify as one person being the one. Is it a series of well executed nites of going out and getting to know that person only out of fun. Does it just happen by chance that you were destined to meet that person who feels connected to you. And even if fortunate enough for all of this to happen what would you really do. In reflection of my past it may have been easier to dismiss such things as they were. So black and white the pages and never really appreciating everything in its vibrant color. Not realizing at the time that within myself was broken and looking to mend. All of the mistakes made along the way in doing so and never realizing the message I would send. Only the people I thought were hurt along the way was everyone else but me. Now in my years and experiences of achievement I can reflect on those days and truly see. The only person so effected by all of that was myself and to my very soul of who I was. Now it has been some years ...

How it fares to be a creature of the night. To see everything you do in the day only in a different light. How a heart soars while dancing with Mother Moon and all of her Stars. So quietly close to the heavens and all of those dreams of here and of far. Talking to greater powers that be for guidance and inner peace. To grasp a better perspective of life and all it has to lease. Amazing isn't it how reflections look in the night sky. Unlike the light of day that may blind some to things staring at them right in the eye. Even listening to your own breathing is never as calm as it is during the middle of the night. Of course being a creature of passion is also best when it is burning bright. Letting go and enjoying the feats of the day. Honestly only at night is one to do this no better way. Enjoying the Mother Moon in her dark light is as ghostly and heavenly as it all to be. Triggering the very heart and soul of one living a...

To see things for what they are in that moment it presents itself to you. Do you keep it to yourself or call it for what it is, what would you do. The ability to have vision most do not is at times a burden in of itself you see. The ability to have that voice and mindset in freeing your thought to that moment openly. Some say there is no couth for such a thing. I say open it up and let it pour like music, let it sing. Hey Hey Don't Ya Know Don't Ya Know You See It, I See It, They Want To Be It. The one who makes you smile and let this grow. Not being the one upon a side bench of which I sit. As with anything in life, for sure is never certain. As do I when saying what needs to be said that you will not drawl yourself to a close behind a curtain. For effective communication is the true language of love though be it on so many levels. The rest is in the response, of which it to, is like casting spells...

This moment I am in looking at you. In the very way your body looks in those jeans snuggling everything I wanna do. The shirt and how it exposes your skin to your waist line so bare. I wish for it to be closer so that I may let my tongue roam everywhere. Watching everything else on your body respond to my every touch with my watchful eye. Interesting to see those jeans go from flat against your skin to straight in the sky. Undoing that nickel button like Christmas to look at what I got. To start the unzipping with my teeth as I start at your wet spot. Your deep breath which is followed by a deeper rich moan. It bursts out at me as it has been unleashed and oh my, has it grown. Teasing me as you begin to dance it across my face while staring me down. Making me wet in the process and making me eagerly wanting to please you without making a sound. As you drawl those lips closer, I feel the hotness of your breath mixed with...

You To Me Make Perfect Sense. With Your Love So Heavy And Intense. Others May Feel That They Could Cut It With A Knife. Everyone When They Are Near Us In Our So-called Life. Knowing That When We Are Near. Our Love They Feel They Never Fear. It Encompasses Everything Around Us. To The Touch, The Smell, The Taste, Without Fuss. Some May Say It Is Sick To Be This Way. Such Passion As We Share Day After Day.  Who Is Anyone Really To Judge What They See. Until They To Have Had The Experience In Living As Such In ?LoveMe?

How to make sense of something that doesn't make sense. This is the question your asking yourself after spending your time with me. It is unlike anything you have experienced and now you seek an answer to sense. It was as natural as you felt in doing as to the rhyme and reason to be. No questions during our time together doing what we do and now you're needing some sense. Letting yourself go to enjoy some of the good you knew you felt and could see. Everything that felt right between us did not require any of this sense. Because it made sense during our time together as a we. There is no sense on how to make something make sense. Especially when you already know how it does in this life of ?LoveMe?

You look deep into me with those forever blue sky eyes. Staring into my soul as you know you are there always without surprise. Many would think our love for being heavy as it is, would be a burden to carry. That it is why there is just the two of us for this the most precious of all things and in being merry. This life together we cherish more than anything else because we appreciate what it took get here. Nothing on this beautiful earth I know could ever take the place of you my dear. You take me places where no other ever would. You stand by me in a place where no other could. Without question rhyme or reason. It is of each other that will always be in season. So to those who can openly and honestly say this about yours. Remember love deep within your heart as it pours. That in order for you to be in love of someone such as we. To be completely madly open in love of yourself for your hearted words in ?LoveMe?

My body trembles in your presence and can be felt by the weight of your stare. Trembling more with each gentle rough handed stroke upon me as you place me where. Where ever you want me, How ever you want me, Whenever you want me. Giving me every part of you as you watch and stare, over my excitement of your body just to be. There Is No End In site To All Of This Yearning The Heaviness Of Us Is Twisted And Burning. To My Very Soul I Feel All Of you In All Of Me. To The Core Of My Being I Am In Love Of You To Be. Feeling That Is And Always Will Be My All. Knowing That No Matter What That You Would Be There To Catch Me When I Fall. This Thing That We Call An Us Will Always Be. Forsaking Everything In Our Life Of ?Love Me?