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Blues!

The emptiness in my life is as vast as the sea. It fucking sucks cuz it just feels it was meant to be. I know there is something to be said for all of the reasons. It has been way too long since I had all of my seasons. There was a brief moment at best where I felt my world move. Yet again empty without anything or something to prove. Back to my abandoned ship where I feel most at home. Lonely, quiet, and open to what ever may come. The heart does ache to love a soul so complete. Unfortunately no-one will ever be in the running let alone even compete. This heart like the sea is even at best too big for me. I smile and laugh with life and joke myself into believing nothing is wrong. Until I hear the music in my soul burn me with blues ever so strong. I set myself free with every note be it purposeful or sinning At least I feel something purposeful and that I am winning. Feel it nice, Feel it slow, Feel it dirty, and let it go. The only time I ever feel anything is when ...

Rage In A Cage

Dealing with a broken heart and all of its rage! Like a Wild Animal that has been caught in a cage! Making no sense of it all when it is happening to you. The rage is asking yourself," Now what am I to do?" Revenge sounds so sweet and it feels so right. Before making that decision lets look at this in a different light. Who's heart is currently breaking? Who's not hurting like you and enjoyed all of the taking? There is an important lesson to be learned in just those two questions right there. Time to own YOUR SHIT and get right with YOURSELF if you truly care! Realizing that blame game is definately two fold. It becomes unecessary and truly grows very old. Take your time and appreciate yourself in becoming a better you instead. Be large and get in charge of YOU and then you will be turning everyones head. Do not forget where you are in your life for the next who tries in stealing your heart. Sit down like a grown ass adult and have that conversation b...

Time & Season

Everything does happen for a reason. Everyone every place for their time and season. Enjoy that time spent or lost however it will last. Once it is gone it becomes the past. Only wishing in tomorrow that we will see. Fruition and of course what will be will be. There truly is no rhyme to the reason. Why these things and people have their season. Life is truly that mystical thing. It shows who we are whether our heart breaks or what is making it sing. Truly learn from these times. Make the impression on yourself before trying to change others minds. One thing is certain in this life today. "It is the only one you get," so they say. Make the most of those things and whom ever. Expand that mind for it just may turn into something clever. Also, make sure to love yourself enough for everyone else to see. That there is more than enough to love in this life of ?LoveMe?   

Single You

You ask why I am single. Laughing and then of course the giggle. Definitely not afraid to mix and mingle. Even having moments when it tingles. Definitely having a way of not crossing any signals. Being the fire that burns warm and pringle. Asking as if you've known the answer to this lil jingle. Take a really good look as to the why I am single. ?LoveMe?

Your Silence

Your silence is killer and down right bone chilling. Knowing your love being real and so willing. To sacrifice such a thing just to save your own face. What of your giving yourself in such grace. Knowing that you are better than all of that. Throwing it all away over a society's eye in which you already spat. Try as you may to throw away a connection so deep and so tue. You will realize to late what it really was and that is all on you. Knowing you could have had the entirety of the world in the palms of your hand. All you had to do was be real enough to see it through and take a stand. Instead of being open you chose silence as your way out. Guess it should not be so surprising in you reprising your role in this so called self doubt. You had an unconditional love that was too great and true. Wishing you all the best of my friend in whatever your trying to pursue. As for me in all of this and where will I be. Still living my life in all it is in ?LoveMe?

Love Movies

I have always had an appreciation for a really good story. Especially those of guts and love in all of their glory. Where the odds are over whelming and yet they triumph over good verses evil. Better yet where they both lose everything before making that jump like Evil Knievel. Yes it would be nice if every love story were just like the ending of any love movie. Reality is? Most feel trapped in some sort of shyness or feel like the creep or a bit quirky. Sweaty Palms and beads of sweat on their forehead. Most say, "No Way," while others can't cope or deal and just wish they were dead. I never could understand the idea of putting yourself out there. Feeling completely powerless and naked for everyone else to stare. Until one day someone said to me, "You do know why you are alone?" And for the first time I was honest and said, "Because I'm not honest," in harsh tone. They replied, "So be honest with yourself in putting you ...

Faith In Torture

Being in love with a tortured soul is definitely not for everybody. To be strong enough to withstand those daemons takes a toll on ones body. Have to be trusting with everything even though there might be a let down. Having sense enough knowing who they are verses what they are so you don't drown. Keeping that faith that brought both of you together in the first place. Especially at times when you feel like jumping just to save grace. Deep down you both know that this is a love unlike any other. The looks, the touch, the feel, the taste you both experience with one another. When an unbreakable bond in faith and love between two different worlds meet. Each knowing that no other could even come close or compete. Yet having a hard time with how this came to be without rhyme or reason. Especially when our time together feels like a whole nother season. When one knows who they are as a person being the grounded one. The other struggling to understand who they are because t...

Breaking

You're so lenient at being too convenient. Breaking backwards just to please me. You're so daring in being too caring. Breaking that ass just to please me. You don't even care how I pull your hair. Breaking your rules just to please me. You go so far for me to leave a scar. Breaking your heart just to please me. You think love things till your heart stings. Breaking that soul just to please me. You're cryin so confused over being too used Breaking expectations just to please me. You're in so much doubt to find a way out. Breaking dreams just to please me. You're non emotion goin through motion Breaking yourself just to please me. You're so use to all of my abuse. Breaking you lifeless just to please me. You're clingy to so I won't leave you Breaking your spirit just to please me You're wish comes true when I leave you. Breaking the cycle of just pleasing me. You worthless piece of shit cuz you did it Breaking your sanity j...

Magnificence

How wonderful it is to hear and feel the thump of this heart pound. Lifelessly laying here admiring this body without a sound. What a magnificent wonder truly it is when you think of it. All of this amazingness inside a skin that truly is not so thick. How everything flows as one to make this all work together. Making it true that we all are birds of the same feather. You bleed as do I. Though all of us do not see eye to eye. Making us all unique is comprehension. Some agreeable and some filled with tension. There is a magnificence in increasing numbers of us. Civilizations are proof of this as they rise or fall with just. Do not forget to hear and feel that heart of yours pound. Knowing that it beats only for you without a single sound. As it is not only for us to exist and be. It is only to Love Thy Self in a selfless life of ?LoveMe?

Laying Here

As I lay here and think of you. It is really hard to breathe the air I do. Wishing that you were laying here beside me. Having your eyes staring back for only us to see. Holding your hand in mine till we fall a sleep. Knowing our hearts beat for each other ever so deep. Never dreaming this would be so hard and scaring. Loving someone this much so frightening and daring. Almost makes one wonder how it be so easy in letting this go. With only trust in our faith while being apart letting our love grow. This is when time seems so harsh so cruel. Crushing at times and yet at others adds more fuel. I love to love my love effortlessly, yes really. I love to love my love indeed so freely. It does come at cost and we pay that price. Just know that we are for each other in making this sacrifice. That our day will come when the price is paid. That through it all we remained true in our faith of each other and it is where our hearts stayed. Continuing our growth in each of us to...

Yours & Mine

Love the sound of your voice and how it puts me at ease. The feel of your body next to mine when you are eager to please. The way your hand slides into mine and guides me. While your eyes undress me and lay me down to see. Your kisses, your passion, all of your desire to worship my love. The way we fit together like a hand in glove. Your heart beats heavy with mine in the midst of our throws. Filling me more and more as your love grows and grows. Driving me to my edges over and over while kissing all of my curves. Knowing that your pleasure is the only of which my body deserves. Tasting your tongue and feeling your lips upon mine. Feeling your moans fill my mouth while your special gift fills me just fine. As you do I tense with the release of passionate pleasure. We both collapse into each other knowing it is only us we treasure. Laying here and staring into each others eye. No doubt of our committed faith to our love between you and I. Running my fingers over your ja...

Unsaid

When things are unleft said between two hearts. It has a way of breaking their cycle of where one ends and the other one starts. Fairer be not in judgement for the two shall never judge each other. Instead? Faith in their loyalty of being honest with respect is how they continue being each others lover. Nothing could ever undo what is, has been, and always will be. Their depth in connection and their beating hearts of one. Truly something special even to those around in their light can see. Nothing shall Wedge them or Pit them against one another into ever becoming undone. So will it be their souls they have pledged together in living this life as a whole. Forging this love not only in this life. Rather every life there after like they did in previous lives in which no-one ever stole. You may even speak of things such as eternal bliss. Just know, that if ever a thing did exist? It would be these two that could ever make you feel and believe in all of this. ?LoveMe?

True Love Story of DJ/TP/SW/94-71

We met after our eyes did. Staring into each others soul finding each others inner kid. That is when both of us saw into each others light. So beautiful and rare and definitely bright. Who would have thunk our rays of light would turn to flames of passion. Fueled every bit by our very deep and strong connection. A bond that has definitely broadened into having no bound. Living in our kind of love and knowing we do not even need to make a single sound. Our touch, Our Gaze, Our Pose as in two are now one. Nothing, Nobody, Not One Thing can stand in our way of this love ever being done. We have our love in the light of everything that is good and wholesome so it be. Unlike those who fall in love after enjoying each others flesh and delving into fantasy. This kind of Love is very precious and rare indeed. Then again? We are after all--- The last of our kind! A dieing breed. No matter what of the who, what, wherever shall we be. We have us always and ever! In our own ways of...

I'm Broken

If you say it so? Then so it shall be! A bigger person can let it go. Another to make it happen for everyone to see. Please don't be broken! It so pains the heart! I stand before you with arms wide open. Hug your soul with real love to start. ?LoveMe?

A Kiss

A kiss is more than a kiss when it comes to you. Your scent, your taste, your every essence will always do. I love the way you sniff my hair. I definitely love when you touch, tickle, and devour me everywhere. How it works between us is with our look. When our eyes lock everyone will say how the earth shook. This is why a kiss is more than a kiss when it comes to you. To me it's everything and nothing else will do. ?LoveMe?

I Made A Wish

I make this wish to warm my heart. This wish I made is all I can do. Even though this wish has not happened yet, that's the best part. This wish I will truly know when it comes to me so be it true. Being so true and real with this wish, I will be ready for it to start. This wish starts when I feel my heart to open again with the very touch of you. ?LoveMe?

Worried Over Me

Days in worry has me locked in a cage. Worry myself blocked and full of rage. Like a gun cocked and ready for rampage. The Odds are stocked against me at this age. Hmmmmm, Stop, focus and engage. The real problem is my vision Make Me a priority and have the final decision. No more will The Worry be my destination. Stay strong and be a survivor at length. Live the love for yourself and drawl your strength. No longer a prisoner of Worry and ever more now a light for others to see. Share yourself  in this life with others and share yourself in this life of ?LoveMe?

Happiest of Wishes Be It The Holidays & New Year

Tis the time we all enjoy our Holiday Cheer. As well, to say Goodbye to yet another year. To all of the well wishes during these holidays be the best and true. To embark upon a New Year is to reflect on yours and what this really means to you. Whether it be changes, growth, whatever you decide it be. Just know that No Matter What? As long as I'm around? You'll always have me! Happiest of New Year Wishes & Love, ?LoveMe? PS. I LOVE YOU!