?LoveMe?

Everyday a piece of me is missing. The heart is heavy and I just am not listening. Getting back into the new norm. Harder to do when all you wanna do is morn. In this the day of the wonderful womens club. Already knew a few way before their time and could never sub. Big MaMa Linda, My Grandmothers Lady Ruth and Charity, and my Bestie Nancy. Amazing how a little love, honesty, and communication kept it all real and not so fancy. Each carved a piece of them into who I am and what I will be. They are all always there in the back of my head making me see. What's right, what's wrong. Filling my heart with always a song. How I would give just about anything to hear them say my name one more time. Cuz I always knew whether good or bad in that moment, I was owned and it was all mine. Without them the world is deafening quiet while standing there on my own two feet. Something about all that, that should be so bitter sweet. Though, even in their own words they...

To stand alone is truly a feat all on it's own. The days, weeks, months, and years roll on. Still passionate in all that is done even in tone. No mercy for the strong and no pity for the weak like a con. Living in truth and seeing everyone elses lie. Makes one weary of others on the age old question as to why? The patchwork heart locked in a gilded cage. Livingly waiting for a new dawning to a new age. No limits, No Boundaries, No Labels, No such thing as No. As to the yearning this heart wants to beat and over the years still has glow. To be prized such a gift to just anyone surely cannot be. Ones wit, manner, experiences, must match in order for this one to see. The keys to this kingdom exist in mind only. To unlock that one need not think but solely. Treat this in the manner you would want to be treated. To stand by each others side and not be defeated. Never having to think is never having to worry. To live in the Happily Ever Afters could be our story. To be...

My current disposition. Make ya curl fetal position. Without this composition. I'd be a Family Tradition. I grow in this transition. Like starting out a bad transmission. Don't fuck with the vision. No excuses just ambition. Man on a mission. Just a man on a mission. So when you told me NO. And you let me go. Didn't think I'd grow. Into the things I know. Well here's my show. Didn't see dat, OH. My bad so. Now you can go. Ain't  nothin for a ho. Man on a mission. Just man on a mission. Sippin on coffee. Drinkin my tea. Ain't no misery. Like watchin lassie. What ever will be. Will be. Doin what I see. Living and Loving all of me. Man on a mission. Just a man on a mission. ?LoveMe?  

The paths we choose will lead us to our journey. No two are the same in experiences between you and me. However, lessons learned along the way are. This is what makes us all sparkle like a star. Know where you have been and remember where you come from. Use the lessons learned along your journey for you to walk a steady course and not run. Look listen and feel your environment and ask is this really you. Answer yourself honestly and you will always know what to do. It is when you choose to stay stuck in the viciousness of pointing to everyone else for blame. That you will only know those who you let hold you back from your journey that you even forget your own name. Stop pointing to everyone else and start pointing that finger to you. Pick yourself up and brush it off and find your path which, you know what to do. Be who you are, be what you are, just let yourself be. Remember when you get to where you are and to always remember us in loving yourself in ?LoveMe?

You could never be sure of anything in this life. Even when facing death at the hands of someone elses knife. Everything you thought you knew is now all shook up. Not even being able to answer when someone asks, "S'up?" Now that what you thought to be real. All gone now, nope, what a raw deal. Now you are off to discover the new norm of so called life to be. Trying some new, Some old, and some will just have to wait and see. Until then it has always been about the living and live, live, live. Always trying, taking, being and as usual you have to give. Never thinking what you should. Doing what you can on the could. Keeping the mind open enough to the would. Woulda, Coulda, Shoulda, is not an all at once mind set on anything sane. Being two sided in life is no way to be either for you are just living in vien. Keep, know, and live what is real for any of the goodness to be really seen. Even surprising yourself along the way sometimes in wonderment with wher...

A few dreams? Yeah, I had quite a few. Doesn't matter now. Cuz, they were all squashed by you. Never with the love or the support you should have given to me. Instead? Work, work, work is all you will ever need to know---worker bee. Nobody special is what will amount to if you keep your head in the sky. I never wanted to be like you with no passion for living, I'd rather die. Now here it is all grown up with still some dreams just a few. Guess what? None of which will ever be squashed by you. Never get stuck on the negative bullshit of others growing up. Just remember, As you grow into beautiful they will be growing on stuck. Don't give into that crap of passing the buck. Make it worth your while and start giving a fuck! I made it on through and in keeping it real to be. Love yourself enough fantastically in ?LoveMe?

When I told myself enough was enough I meant it. Stuck with that feeling as my #1 rule and never bent it. Took me some years to get my life off my back. Stopped crying the same ole tears and got my life on track. Oh, you will never amount or be good at nothing. Oh, look at me now I got me ain't that something. Words from the wise and suppose to know better. Hard to live when you still hold on to their every letter. Oh, look at me now I got me ain't that something. Oh yeah that's right you only believed in nothing. After dealing with the anger I had for you. Then dealing with my own anger cuz it was so easy to do. Placing everything of me in clear jars. Helps me see what it was as I continue to reach for the stars. Oh, you will never amount or be good at nothing. Oh, look at me now I got me ain't that something. Words from the wise and suppose to know better. Hard to live when you still hold on to their every letter. Oh, look at me now I got me a...