?LoveMe?

As if I were interested in just an, "I'm Sorry."                                              Like it would matter after all the heart break and worry. Even if there were another chance for you. What else would you say, what else would you do.                             Like you would ever get that chance to redeem what you have lost. Better off just leaving the way things are like losing the keys or better they were tossed. So what do you say to that or do you think you are gonna stick to your sorry excuse. I have already healed from all of your lies and all of your abuse. So excuse me if I am not the least bit interested in any letter of what you say. Life has been great for me since you left me in the shape I was. Like the pain was food and I just devoured it all and now I live...

You think the way you do and wonder why things aren't so great. Living that double life in being happy with me and the other of living straight. What did you expect when it came to an end. I said I would be here for you not waiting till you to decide I was more than a friend. You needed more time to think and be sure of what and who you are. By going out and screwing everything you can and partying it up like a rock star. Chances you've taken and risking yourself all for sake of saving face and being sure nobody knows. Especially when the answer is so obvious and never not once rejecting that by waiting on you really blows. The answer obvious to me is you like living in this torture and pain over something more powerful than love. I became stronger and went on to live my life by setting it free and rising above. The greatest healer of all came to pay me a visit who we all know as Time. Giving me back to myself and living in love with a heart that is all mine. Now a...

Things that I use to see so clearly. Are now no longer anything close to me. My dreams were inspirational they made me do. My dreams now yours for the stealing, it's all you. The life worth fighting for has come to past. Now I just take it everyday right up the ass. You smile the way you do because you know. I do it for being beaten down and nothing to show. The spit of my hatred would leave my mouth so dry. Spit it I would if I could right into your eye. Maybe it would give a vision of a person that use to be. A person worth loving in a little life of ?LoveMe?

The way you were carrying yourself while you were playing pool. Left me zoning as I was just standing there watching you like a fool. When you rolled your eyes over to mine. That sort of tingle I got down my spine. Let me know that I had been caught in my attraction. Slim to none I know in that there is no chance not even a fraction. As you smile back to me you know what I do and you play along. Then as everyone leaves one by one you play your song. You took my hand and asked me to dance it was by total surprise. That when your song was over in your final stance that you were a man on the rise. You felt what I did as you said and no words were spoken. You left yourself in the moment you said and felt like you were never broken. As You Thanked me for the feeling as it was never felt. Unfortunately for us our lives won't allow this and such as our cards were dealt. Back to your life as I return to mine. Still feeling your eyes tingling my spine. You head towards the ...

Sometimes I wonder if you are there with me. Afraid to let go of the manliness for your heart to see. We both are deserving of the same thing. What does both of hearts bleed for and what does it sing. Love is the answer to that question and then some. How do we do it with and in the fact we are as one. If you could let go your upbringing cuz I have done that with mine. I will let go of your stigma so that our hearts can entwine. I see you for you as would you see me for me. Our hearts as one beating together as they should be. There is no label, no stamp of approval for this we share. We need to be bold in us in this love we bare. Nobody said it would be perfect in fitting with this plan. Me loving you for you and you loving me for me as we both stand. Forsaking all others is how it was suppose to be. Eye for an eye in how we love each other in this life of ?LoveMe? 

I do not know what I have done to deserve being all alone. Never the less so empty and bare right down to the bone. Doing what is needed every day just to live and survive. In all of this beauty of solitude and loneliness to thrive. It does get easier I do have to say. With each passing of every painful dull day. And yet there is this bright light that burns deep within that only I can see. Somewhere somehow someday someone will see it to and meaningfully say ?LoveMe?

You have me with the way you sit in that chair. Looking to me and giving such a heavy stair. Our thoughts connecting as one on a gambit of things. Pleasant of which for the both of us as to what is making our smiles sing. Nothing false about it with your way of maneuvering yourself into position with me. Gentle with your smile and the placement of your hand on mine for us to be. Knowing that if we could meet face to face with our lips it would all be undone. Passion would consume the both of us as we would place our bodies together in becoming one. The taste of your tongue would be well worth it for me alone. No haste would you be in feeding my body your bone. Your hot breath washing over mine. Deeper in passion as we entwine. Your beads of sweat and how they would tingle my body into a pulsating frenzy. As you fill me with yours and believe me it would be more than plenty. Instead here we are with just our connecting stare. With the way you have me just sitting in that...