?LoveMe?

A day is what I am having. Of Not Smiling and Laughing. A day of missing myself and who I am. Misguided, Misled, do not know where to stand. Off-balance and getting some sort of control. Before slipping even further into this black hole. Shouldn't feel this way but I do. I know I am not the only one and you? Is it really Fake It Till You Make It Or, Forsake It and Bend Over And Take It. I do not know so I will regroup in a huddle. Call My Bestie over so we can cuddle Talk this over and see what has me in a befuddle. So silly and and to think it true. This isn't about me nor about you. It is just A Day I am having. Of not smiling and Laughing. Not everyday will be perfect in fact we all will have a few. Knowing of this will better your chances in knowing what to do. Look to the love and feel it all over you like swimming in the sea. Even through the rough waters if you keep swimming will find the sun again in ?LoveMe?

Just minding my own self like usual in the day I live. Sitting here in thought thinking, What I wouldn't give. Distracted by the scent of  Fresh Shower. You walk on by me with all the Charm on full power. Stopping my heart when you looked into me. Crumbling inside myself and wishing that you didn't see. All of the things you make my body do. When I locked my eyes onto yours in looking back to you. A simple smile so mischievously you had given. Like a spark into my darkness revealing something very well hidden. A treasure buried long ago and all that was attached with it. Not sure of this feeling all over me and why I am compelled not to sit As if I am being drawn to you in having to introduce myself in person To be sure though this is it, that I no longer need to search on. My heart in my throat I extend my hand to introduce my person in all sincerity. In the firm of your grasp I feel all I need t...

This day of new beginnings brings rain to cleanse the soul. Not sure which path to journey as is with the dice's roll. The hunger for more of wisdom is achieved in willingness to learn. Learning from those mistakes and accepting the responsibilities is what to yearn. Achieving responsibility is the best way to ensure wisdoms bestowment. Who really has the time to run in circles and of wallow I meant. I would rather be free of it all and be able to live and breathe. Than to be miserable in responsibility and taking the joys of others like a robber and thieve. I guess the key words here are Your Willingness. Not taking that responsibility serious enough is killing us. It is up to everyone in the learning from their mistakes department as well the acceptance of responsibilities while still yearning. To be hungry for more wisdom should match that hunger for more of learning. Still not sure which path to journey in thinking of the dice's roll? Every day is the new beg...

As you stand there in your way. Wishing to meet you some day. Still all caught up in the What Would I Do or What Would I Say. For now I will just enjoy you there in your way. Something about your eyes when you smile. The way they hypnotize me in moments for a while. Yes, there is that life to live. To watch you in your way, what I wouldn't give. Just that something special in my view. A hunger, a pain, a passion that burns for you. It does drive me crazy at times, what else am I to do. You are that something special in my view. I can no longer deny it whenever you are around. And yet my lips stay closed when next to you without a sound. For I know where my lips should be and that makes my heart pound Yeah Right, just let me try'n deny that when you are around. The moments I treasure is when you reach for my hand. Paralyzed in my emotions I sink as though I were in quicksand. The very stability of my inner collapses when you do finally pre...

One day will change your life in such a way. No matter what has been done, achieved, and with nothing else to really say. It will be your soul purpose of existence. No sense of time nor distance. Letting go of everything you thought to be close and oh so dear. Realizing the real moments of that heart ticking within you as near. You reach out to grasp onto the one thing you know to be true. Your hand feeling your own breast and that beating inside of you.  Listen to it and feel everything about it is your will. Your own heart that pumps the very thing you spill. Until that one day that changes everything and lets you see crystal clear. Living a life loveless is indeed a heartless thing for most my dear. Living a life heartlessly in love is what really haunts all others that be Living a life honest and true is how others are in a life of ?LoveMe?   

Everyday a piece of me is missing. The heart is heavy and I just am not listening. Getting back into the new norm. Harder to do when all you wanna do is morn. In this the day of the wonderful womens club. Already knew a few way before their time and could never sub. Big MaMa Linda, My Grandmothers Lady Ruth and Charity, and my Bestie Nancy. Amazing how a little love, honesty, and communication kept it all real and not so fancy. Each carved a piece of them into who I am and what I will be. They are all always there in the back of my head making me see. What's right, what's wrong. Filling my heart with always a song. How I would give just about anything to hear them say my name one more time. Cuz I always knew whether good or bad in that moment, I was owned and it was all mine. Without them the world is deafening quiet while standing there on my own two feet. Something about all that, that should be so bitter sweet. Though, even in their own words they...

To stand alone is truly a feat all on it's own. The days, weeks, months, and years roll on. Still passionate in all that is done even in tone. No mercy for the strong and no pity for the weak like a con. Living in truth and seeing everyone elses lie. Makes one weary of others on the age old question as to why? The patchwork heart locked in a gilded cage. Livingly waiting for a new dawning to a new age. No limits, No Boundaries, No Labels, No such thing as No. As to the yearning this heart wants to beat and over the years still has glow. To be prized such a gift to just anyone surely cannot be. Ones wit, manner, experiences, must match in order for this one to see. The keys to this kingdom exist in mind only. To unlock that one need not think but solely. Treat this in the manner you would want to be treated. To stand by each others side and not be defeated. Never having to think is never having to worry. To live in the Happily Ever Afters could be our story. To be...